For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.
In our infertility struggle, I reached a decision-making cliff and it is there where I decided to hand it over to God. It is there where we made the conscious decision to enter the world of foster care and adoption. It is there my life changed.
Once in our journey, there were many moments of indecision. When I received the call for our now oldest son, he was five days old waiting to be released from the hospital. My husband was working in the field at the time and did not have ready access to his cell phone. I called and called, text and called some more to no avail. He did not answer and I was unsure of what to do! We had previously discussed our boundaries and an infant from the hospital was ultimately a best case scenario, but it still felt inappropriate to make a decision without the input from my other half.
After moments of debate, I called my husband one last time and left him a message that said, “You’re going to be a daddy when you get home!”
When I went to work that day, and my husband headed to the field, we didn’t know what was next. God did.
Fast forward approximately two years and we now have three foster children – ages 22 months, 14 months and 2 months. We receive a call for a biological sibling just born, however, mother and child were currently out-of-state and there was an unknown timeline. Are we willing to accept placement if it becomes available?
Our home was chaotic and we weren’t sure in our abilities. We prayed and felt compelled to say yes. We weren’t sure if this child would come into care, or when. We did not know what was next, but God did.
Fast forward approximately seven more years, we have four adopted children – ages 8, 8, 7 and 7 – and are at yet another decision-making cliff. Whether or not our home should close is the question at hand. Are we finished fostering? Do we not have the intention to adopt again? We do not know what is next, but God does.
I could spend hours focusing on the “what ifs” of life. I could lose whole nights wondering what is next and I’m so happy that I don’t have to. In Jeremiah 29:11, we are reminded that the Lord has plans for us. Plans to prosper and not to harm us; plans for hope and a future. Even when we do not know, He does.
Much to Satan’s dismay, I have taken solace in Jeremiah 29:11 during each of my decision-making cliffs. Satan would prefer I worry and struggle with anxious thoughts, but I am comforted by the knowledge that the Lord has plans.
If you find yourself at a decision-making point, seek the Lord’s guidance and open your heart to Him. He has plans for you and you need not fret over the details! The Lord will give you hope and a future if you are simply open to it.